幸福到底是什么呢？每个人都应该得到幸福吗？
世界上真的有所谓的幸福美满的快乐吗？

对我来说，我是不知道幸福是什么？爱情等于幸福吗？还是亲情？还是工作啊？
但是，我是蛮相信 只要你付出了真心，别人也会与真心对待。
我知道 要说容易但要做却很难。

曾经 我有朋友对我很坦诚 说我不懂得珍惜身边所爱护我的人，常常会把他们给予的爱当作是理所当然的。
我也。。 真的认真地思考过他们给过我的感想。

对于我的家人，我还真的把他们给我的爱护与包容当作是应该的。因为从我到这个世界时, 我的父母一直都对我很包容 对我付出好多好多的爱。回想起来 我真的还没真正的感激过他们。我知道他们给我们的爱是不求回报的 是那么无条件地付出。我弟妹也真的对我很好，时常体贴我 照顾着我。我弟妹也常说我不是一个好姐姐。听了，其实我还蛮伤心的。但我想那也是事实。
我真是个不折不扣的大笨蛋!

对于我的朋友， 其实我还算蛮幸福的。身边已经有着几个不错的亲朋好友。他们一直都相信着我的人格，不管发生了什么事,他们都会关心着我， 给我想要的安慰及陪伴。

但是 人总是贪心的 得到的 却不珍惜 没得到的 却拼命的想要得到。

如今，我真的好想好想 好好地对他们好。作为一个好女儿 好姐姐 好朋友！
我知道 这对我来说 并不容易。 我希望我有多一点的时间，可以来证明我行的。 There are too many kinds of human beings...
I believe there is definitely not a single soul that can buy everyone's heart. You will eventually hurt one while helping another.  No matter how hard you try, you can never be the same 100%  in everyone's heart at the same time. We are not perfect! :)

There will tend to have traps, betrayal, lies...
Maybe because of the fast-paced society that make it competitive. Thus, we have no choice but to be crafty. What an irony huh? The more you used your brain & think, the more complicated you will become.

In different phases of your life, you will sure meet someone. That someone who hates you no matter what you do & no matter what you say. OR that someone who gossips behind your back, backstab you in front of all your friends & trying to implicate things between you & another party. OR that someone who only finds you when he/she is in need of attention. OR that someone who is always negative about things around. OR that someone who is only close to you in social media whereas in real life, you all don't even talk! OR that someone who only come to you when he/she knows you are feeling low. (Most likely from social media)...

However, who born to be such a person mentioned above? Noone! We definitely want to be the "good person" in every dramas as we all knew that only being the good person, we will get the all that we want & need. All humans only want, need & yearn for one thing & that is LOVE. When we couldn't get what we need in life, we will unknowingly turn into someone that we will never imagine we will turn into...

You can always find time to reflect on your actions or even asks your close ones to feedback on you. But of course, be open enough to accept critics. Be willing to keep it up or change once you differentiate whether your actions had do you good or bad. Be flexible to changes! :) "Believing in yourself and all that you are. Know that there is something inside you that is greater than any obstacle" 
~ Christian D. Larson

 "Believe in yourself & have faith in God... that's all you need to be a good human & prove that your existence was worth it. Keep smiling." ~ Vinit Parmar




Never ever look down on what you can do, what you can be, or even what you can give. We are not perfect, we will surely make mistakes, be insecure about ourselves or having a day when we feel so bad about ourselves.

However, we should never DO the below 3H:
1) Never HATE yourself
2) Never HURT yourself &
3) Never HARM others

Do not underestimate the power of POSITIVITY! :)
There is a difference when you think positively & when you think negatively.
Therefore, instead of telling yourself:

Change this:
No, I can't do this.
I don't think I can handle.       
I try my best.                               
Sure die lah..                                
To:
Yes, I can do this.
Yes, I know I can handle.
Yes, I will do it.
I will get through this time.

If you do not know where to start changing, you can start by:

• Loving yourself more
• Spending time to understand yourself 
• Speaking of positive words to yourself as well as to others
• Treasuring people around you

Hope this will help people like myself to be yourself & believe in yourself! :) Oh dear! i got to confess that i really ate a lot lately!! @_@
im getting fatter each day other than another way round. Its like so far away from my dream goal. Today, i ate beehoon noodle with 3 fried stuffs, chicken cutlet, 2 pieces of chicken and worst, i drank pearl milk tea!!! ALL FRIED + MILK TEA = GG! O_O

This semester is really a challenge to me. Hell loads of projects and assignments!!! The worst part is i didnt even do well in any of them!@_@!
im like feeling the stress now. This is the only time when i really feel very, very stress! ):

i wore my "smiley face" shirt and my leather jacket today. i love it man... The smiley face brightens up my day! >_3
Cus its so cute and especially it is YELLOW!!! ((:

i saw my EYE-CANDY today! As usual, HANDSOME!! (>_<)
Today is a good day but tomorrow shall be a better day man! ^_3 HAHA! Before i start doing my CDS's journal, i feel like blogging first!!!
I started off my day today with a boring lesson, ASP.NET(which is on programming, about C#).
We got a lab test today! Although i got the book with most of the codes, but i cant figure out how to do the test!): Seriously, it was really depressing. There were many things in the module that im very weak in. The lecturer was right that i didnt even know the basic of it!! However, i felt that the lecturer should not said it in front of students!!! ):
i really dun want to retake the module sia! Its alr very boring plus the lecturer dun even know how to teach can! Hais...

i ate alot today sia! Ate beef burger, thai chicken rice, fish n chips and two chicken wings!!! =]
i hope tomorrow will be a better day for me!
"HUITING! its alr the 11th day! What have you done to make yourself better?
So... Wake up, wake up!!!" Suddenly feel like blogging again!((: Initially wanted to change a brand new blog for a fresh start but i still love this skin the best!!!HAHA!

There are so many things that happened in year 2010, the ups and the downs moments!! i felt as if i had again wasted another year and im getting older each year by! i should be more mature in thinking and the way i behave.

The new resolutions for 2011 is... ...
1) Lose weight!
2) Be more Christ-like and adult-like!
3) Get rid of all my bad habits!

Its had been 9 days away from the start of the year, so far it had been fully-utilized!
Ever since the start of school, projects upon projects and plus the eguide program had been making me busy and making up the fullness of whole day!!! Its awesome!!<3

Now, im like stuck at home to do my CDS project! The worst thing is i do not know how to start with it!! ):
Oh please God! I need some inspirations!!! ((:

Jiayou everyone and God bless you!!!^^

Oh dear.. Haven been posting, guess for mths. Yea and miss out so much things to share..=/ i had found back my love and passion! Able to communicate le! i guess my previous post is damn emo can..lol!That day was really break down man!.. Nevermind..Recharged and should keep moving on..Pastor Kong was indeed awesome! Thank God for blessing us such an awesome pastor to teach us the word of God.Each msg just impacted into people's lives..
Yays! Exams are finally over! Although it was not really good but thank God for the strength last night! As i only started studying at 2300 to 0630 at mac with wenting and her fren...It was damn tiring!But thank God i survived thru and learnt more than what i expected.HA!Hmm..directly after exam today,went to meet alicia.Really had a great day with her..Thank God!She is really a great fren.i'm so blessed to know her!(: Bought a spectacle for $2 at daiso!SUPER cheap can.haha! Thank God for the day!(: Thank God for all the friendships and kinships!(:
Before i go,here are some photos that i like recently:




Thinking back,i guess i'm really DUMB,real stupid!..Thinking so much yet never act upon it?Is it sth wrong with me?=X i knew it all along that i had been cheating on myself,trying to salvage sth that is not going to work out. Hopping ard,trying to communicate BUT what abt times when i didn't start talking first?i hate it when you treat me as an invisible!I hate it when you dun even care!I'm a human,i admit i'm emotional! Many times.. i just kept quiet and keep it deep down in my heart.BUT i guess everyone has a limit?Do u even know so many times i even wanted to be alone than with u? HA! I think u dun even care. Many times, i just tell myself,"it's ok" and i really appreciate that at least i have a kid to talk to...Seriously,i rather talk a kid that talk to u man! Why is it everytime only when things happen then u started caring? Where does the caring system goes to?...Everytime after *******, i look around and do u know how much i yearned for someone to come forward and talk to me?Even just a pat will do...It can meant alot to me,REALLY!(:
To Meiqi:
i really really miss the times when we serve the Lord tgt! All the ups and downs that we went thru! You are always there by my side!(: Every now and then,i just can't stop thinking abt the times that we are tgt!The tears and laughters we had tgt. HA!Sia lah,i sounded as if we were married.LOL!Hmm,without u,i will really dunno what to do man.Maybe have depression?MUAHAHA! kidding.All i wanna say is "Thank You,laopo!" Let's jiayou tgt man!(: MUAHAHA! Ytd directly after CG, suddenly had an urge to meet meiqi.So i just msg-ed her and didn't knew her cg was at simei and purely coincidental,my cg was at tampines! LOL! Out of the blue moon,Teresa wanted to go Jalan Kayu to eat our "so-called supper"! It was damn abnormal can? She normally wun go somewhere so far from her hse sia!HAHAH!Nvm..Maybe sacrificed for fellowshipping. Hmm, Then end up me,meiqi,ben and teresa went there to eat tgt! We chatted all the way three plus AM!!
woah! We shared so much stuffs with so many topics covered! Ha! Thank God for such a moment man!(: It had really been sometime that i had been sitting down with someone face to face to chat abt the stuffs.It was great!
Oh yea,i just went to cut my hair and i'm trying real hard to get use to it man!To me,it's damn short man=X But thank God that my mum sponsered me to cut my hair.For it is written;"Ask and you shall receive". There i goes,initially i really thought my mum will nag at me and say i wanted to waste money again as she said i always cut till didn't even see a single changes BUT it was totally opposite man!! She just passed me the money and didn't even uttered a word!(: Anyways,i'm looking forward for svc tomorrow!=D Initially, i thought it's a MUST to hand up all the art pieces by today.But thank God that mr elfie delayed the submission to tml,5pm latest. It is really better than nothing! As i still have 2 more art works that i thought i had to give up due to insufficient of time. Now i guess i don't have to give up le(: Cheers!! Hmm..i guess i had really ruined my A2 drawing. i rushed thru it and it's really damn ugly can...oh dear n i torn some parts of the paper. i guess the paper was low-quality that's why..i only spent 30 cents on it sia.=X Later in the evening, i'm going for PM. Quite excited!!But i wondered anyone from my sub-zone going so i could meet them before going to RW.argh!!! But most of my CG live in the West lea.=/ i guess only me n benjamin were purple line de.haha! yays! No school next week as it's study week!!MUAHAHA! Dun have t0 wake up so early man!(:
okok..i go do art le..=D HEY!Finally have the mood to blog again. As there were some problem in blogger for the past few days that really ruined my mood in blogging. Although the problem still arised but i dun care alr. Because i really miss blogging! i want my blog to revive again!(: These few days had been very tiring n stretched! Thank God for the day of submission is NEAR alr. hmm..i believe my classmates will definitely feel exactly as me! We had ART works, WEBDD project, WRTORAL project and FDMP project. Thank God that the submission for ART is tomorrow, WEBDD's due date was yesterday, WRTORAL and FDMP's due date on Friday. After this week will be our study week then carry on by exam week. Time really flies... Don't u think time really fly too fast alr?=X How i wish time would just slow down a little bit so that we can catch up with it!!! i had been thinking alot for the week. Not only for my homeworks but for my life too...Dun ask me why!!! Because i also wonder why too..due to stress n too much thinkings?i felt that as if my mind became more complicated than usual? Well,nonetheless i still happy the way i am. Because i knew i'm blessed alr and of course there are more blessings to come(:
Went Changi Airport just now to eat POPPEYES! i'm still loving it! HAHAHA! Went there to do art with my clique but i guess it turned out to be unsuccessful for me.=X okok.enough for today,i'm going to do ART and try to complete as much as possible!!!
JIAYOU, HUITING!=D

P.S: Can i trust you? Was rather hurt by someone's msg ytd!=X "It was like you don't even know what exactly i'm going thru as well? Have i not stand in your shoe to think?if i didn't, i would have ask for return of *** mths ago!Do you even know i even skip meals because i had no $ to eat?I dun even have enough for my transport fee!!Thus i need to borrow $ for e usage of eating n transporting? My family isn't rich you know?Do u ever try knowing my family's background?=X i knew you were in difficult situation!But if that's e case i think you shld have just ask *** from parents~ it's not e moment to be "filial"! You got to know what are you doing now?Being in debt isn't a good thing but at least in debt to ur closer ones would be somewhat better than outsiders?=X i thought thru it and i realised if you really sincere abt returning,u won't be waiting for me to ask u everytime for u to return! i really preferred e "old you',e one that is much more sincere! You think by asking *** back from you is very simple?you know how much holdbacks i have before i even try asking e *** back?Alright i hope u keep ur words!And i'm not going to bother u anymore!And hey.come on lah..ur words are really sacartic..Pls be mindful of ur attitude man!=X "

Went for church svc by Pastor Kong! It was very awesome, it makes e realised how impt PRAYER is! I believe God will bless me with money if i'm faithful in tithing!! Really need FINANCIAL BREAKTHRU!(: The msg really touches my heart and when Pst was saying it felt as if my heart is bleeding n bleeding!=X I got to do it unto You,Jesus! Really thx for Your unconditional love and forgiveness and You had indeed blessed me with so many frens that i ever never had!Thank You so much!(: Had a great time playing amazing food race with my team(Zihao, lileng, weichuan, linn, weining n liyun)! You guys were GREAT!=D Was late for an hr for MTT cus of outreach!HAHAHA!Sorry man!=X After MTT,rushed down to CITY HALL again to meet my ex-NPCC frens for a meet-up.LOL! Now,it's e end of my day!HAHAHA!=D NDP parade preview:















It was a rather long day for me today,however i think i had really made use of the whole day! By right, i should finish school at 12pm but i skipped Engmath's lecture with my besties to go to Tampines to shop and have an early lunch. After that, me and Felicia went back school to have EngFund's Remedial Class which was for those who fail(Although i didn't fail,i didn't pass till very good as well).In additon,Felicia also asked me to accompany her and so i did~ For that remedial,only me,Felicia and Lawrence went!=.= lolol!
The remedial class was indeed very fulfilling! There were not much people attending thus the percentage of getting a one-to-one tutor is higher! The mentors can mainly focus of like groups of one to two students. HAHA! And through that one-to-one tutoring time(1.30pm to 4pm), i finally understand how to get the answer! it was indeed a very fruitful lesson for me duh!(: After that, Felicia and Lawrence accompany me till 4.50pm like that at TM as i had to attend cg at tamp area too so if i go home,it will be a waste of time because most of the girls know how to drag their time. Ben and Lileng and Marshall also wanna meet for dinner at 5.30pm at Tamp too.. So all the way till CG starts! Today's CG sermon was preached by Veron's husband as Veron was down with a fever.So she stayed in her room to rest!=X Really hope she can get well soon~ Then her hubby also did a ministering session for us all! Thx man! it was really awesome!(: And it really revived my soul! I want to love You each day more than how much i do the previous time, Jesus!!^.^ HERBERT~~~~


NPCC'S OUTING!!! (FINALLY...)

DAR N BAOYI.

DAR AT HER USUAL SELF! LIKE TO ZI LIAN.

MDM! WHERE ARE YOU?

IT TOOK AARON SO LONG TO TAKE THIS PHOTO~

JIESHENG N HWEESIANG.

HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO MDM N ADVANCED BDAE FOR HWEESIANG!(:


DAR THE CAKE CUTTER!LOL
-MEIQI N US!!