For this few days,the sky is so grey for me.i really just dunno why..i think i am emotionally unstable....i just felt myself being adnormal,crying and crying...i am so useless in a sense..i just cant just stop thinking of ger's words..whenever i think of it, tears ll just keep dropping..i think i really too miss her..

cus she is the one that ONCE doted me so much..

she is the first one that help me control my family members and teach them some disciplines...

whenever ..i feels like crying...ger words ll always be swirling around my mind..

i really hope to contact her again..

i need ger's words!

but..

i kow god loves me eternally and won't forsake me..i really felt so contented..

but still..

i dun wish to lie to my parents..really..

but..

if i tell them the truth..

they would say.."church teach you all to go back home late is it?"

i dun want to leave a bad impression to my parents on church..

i want them to sincerely accept the truth that i went to church...

i want to be a good testimony!

i am really fine...thanks everyone for ur concern!