today super sad~
Thursday, February 28, 2008 | 8:30 PM | 0 comments
argh!!!just now written a post liao but sian nv realised that i d/c liao and went to click on,"publish post"...so GONE CASE!all my feelings was expressed out on the other post that i had written but now all gone..as u know,it would be hard to express it out again !!!**super super angry now sia lah!=/okok..no choice got to re-type all out again!=?
sian lea..argh!okok..i shall keep the ball rolling...
Finally common tests are over,but most of the results that i had gotten back greatly disappointed me!=/
i knew i had been studyin' last min.
but i thought that was all about understandin' and all..
i think i'm dumb man!
all foolish thoughts of mine!
all the while,i had been expecting marks that i would score for my common test but it was all under my expectation lo...i was disappointed!i'm sad..all i wanna do was to cry all my hearts out!
i know it myself whether who treats me well,who is the one who are true to me,who really cares for me or so.!but why can't they just care abit more for me?in all their conversation,it's all about me me me and myself or even what all the boss or parents wanted was just the results!what the crap lah!!!i'm tired,and i'm really tired!somehow or rather i just feel like i'm not going to walk anymore and just stop at where i am but i can't...the source of me moving on is always there to help me up along the tough race!first thing first when i reached home just now was to share my bad results w my mummy and hopes that she would comforts for me.but unfortunately,when i told her my results and all and about hiring a tutor for me as i think i really need one,she answered coldly,"why so bad?i thought ur church members said that they are going help u w ur studies and all?and u kept on going out,didn't u study?"i was like"oh no"!what i could do is to lapse into silence!...i could almost literally feel my heart breaking,like a crystal being shattered into a million pieces!can't she feels that i'm already so down?can't she?hais...my daddy is like that,my mummy is like that,my uncle is like that,certain of my frens are like that and even my siblings!=/
love is seriously a v impt source on earth and in heaven!
why?why can't u know i'm suffering in agony.?forget it...hopes?drained off liao bahs!
the source of my motivation is from my wonderful Abba Father!=)
He's the only one that really cares and loves me!He's awesome!He's good!
i think w/o Him,i won't be doing so well for my social circles,in good r/s w all my frens ard.=)
He had changed me into such social and positive girl that noone could ever believe that i was once a super quiet and un-socialise girl.
times and times,He helped me up,gives me strength and encouraged me to move on when i'm weak and thought of giving up!
So many times that i had been hurting Him but He's always faithful to me.
as Pastor always said,"u may b faithless,but God is always faithful to u!"
i know that it is a great challenge to walk in Christians' lifestyle as it requires faith and trust!but i believe i will be entrusting my life to Him cus He's worthy for me doing so,and i promise that i will nv regret my decision made today!
oh yea..i finally sort out my thinking of my desire course,
i'm interested to b an air-stewardess or some hotel management or resort management...
here are some courses i'm interested in TP:
#1 Leisure & Resort Management ---14 pts.
#2 Hospitality and tourism management ---12 pts.
#3 Retail Management ---16 pts.
http://www.tp.edu.sg/home/admissions/intakes/adm_cutofftp.htm
(click here if u want to check on e 2008 c.o.p for ur desire courses.)
"i will strive even harder and got into the course i wanted to be in!---jiayou huiting!=)"