Additional post for the day!(:
Saturday, June 28, 2008 | 9:12 PM | 0 comments
On my trip back from cck,when taking train alone,i kept pondering about alot of flashbacks and all those things that i've gone thru,it even kept me wondered why ...
Suddenly,thoughts swirls ard my mind...it makes me felt so alone.
Maybe i just can't stand being alone?
Before being so social like what i am now,i've gone thru being abandoned and criticised by frens or even have no frens at all and needa do everything alone.Can u imagine being alone and noone there to guide u and concern u?Now,at least i've my God to love and protect me but...seriously i'm a human afterall,i need some human's concerns...
i've gone thru loneliness,so i will tend to be sensitive over the new frens on whether do they feel belong not...and whatever!
perhaps, i hope i'm just a cute baby that everyone wld just naturally draw attention to...
i know i'm selfish at times and i kept thinking about me,me,me...i'm really apologizetic about it!=X but why is it whenever i'm feeling mixed is not u who know it first but is someone that falls under the criteria of "avoiding to be close frens" to know it first w/o having me to tell them? Hence,if that ppl who falls under the criteria of "avoiding to be close frens" can knows it and even encourage me but when can't those that's doesn't falls in the criteria do?sometimes,i really tend to share with someone that falls under the criteria of "avoiding to be close frens" ...okok..i will really try to make a clear cut but it really hurts..cus it's wierd w/o ppl to talk to or to change w certain ppl with certain ppls..if u want to know,can just