i finally get a hand of it!!!=D
Sunday, June 21, 2009 | 12:46 AM | 0 comments
i was very happy to be back to strikeforce again! Thx God,Boon called me that day. i can still rmb it was a Saturday,and that day was a day when i went to e altar call AGAIN~i realised i had not been on track n always went to church for e sake of going. i knew it myself but i never show it out,n i felt that i had been putting on fake smiles in front of alot of ppl n i also lied n lied!=X It made me even hate myself! So i really thx God that lileng came to me n ask me to go to e altar call n also have to thx meiqi for constantly caring for me!!! Although i knew i had received Him before,but after i went to VE for mths,i felt i was changing into e worst even frens started to distant from me. There was a period when i felt so depressed that i wanted to backslide. i felt that there wasn't love n care from any church members anymore,they were like avoiding to talk to me n i felt so alone! Eveytime i felt that there was an invisible wall in front of me that i wasn't able to talk to any Christians!=X Immediately,aft re-receiving of Christ,there was strong feeling whereby i suddenly feel like serving again! Then directly aft svc,while walking from hall one to e mrt station,Boon called!!!=DD It was really like God's calling man!hahah!why do i say so?cus...when i joined strikeforce, i didn't really wanted to..is cus meiqi,xinying n dovel wanna join so while waiting for them,i just filled in e application form de not knowing there was an interview but aft writing e form,we were told to queeue up for an interview.woah!!!
And i felt that i just say whatever i feel abt "STRIKEFORCE" in that interview.And wad was wierd is that meiqi n ME got selected instead of my two other frens,which were more passionate to join strikeforce!!!=X haha! So to think back, i felt it was rather God's plan man! Two incidents that happen so SUDDENLY!~ But i wasn't regretful for all that happen cus we're all serving e Lord! And for now,i dun think i will be going back to VE at e moment cus i really love my life now! Cus now,i felt so much relaxed n joyful n i no longer hate myself but i got to admit that i love myself even more!=)) i love my EVERYTHING!!!Thx to my ABBA FATHER n i love You!(: