Thinking back,i guess i'm really DUMB,real stupid!..Thinking so much yet never act upon it?Is it sth wrong with me?=X i knew it all along that i had been cheating on myself,trying to salvage sth that is not going to work out. Hopping ard,trying to communicate BUT what abt times when i didn't start talking first?i hate it when you treat me as an invisible!I hate it when you dun even care!I'm a human,i admit i'm emotional! Many times.. i just kept quiet and keep it deep down in my heart.BUT i guess everyone has a limit?Do u even know so many times i even wanted to be alone than with u? HA! I think u dun even care. Many times, i just tell myself,"it's ok" and i really appreciate that at least i have a kid to talk to...Seriously,i rather talk a kid that talk to u man! Why is it everytime only when things happen then u started caring? Where does the caring system goes to?...Everytime after *******, i look around and do u know how much i yearned for someone to come forward and talk to me?Even just a pat will do...It can meant alot to me,REALLY!(:
To Meiqi:
i really really miss the times when we serve the Lord tgt! All the ups and downs that we went thru! You are always there by my side!(: Every now and then,i just can't stop thinking abt the times that we are tgt!The tears and laughters we had tgt. HA!Sia lah,i sounded as if we were married.LOL!Hmm,without u,i will really dunno what to do man.Maybe have depression?MUAHAHA! kidding.All i wanna say is "Thank You,laopo!" Let's jiayou tgt man!(: